Complicated

Well, hello. I'm here today to kill myself ask something. 

What will you do 
if you're doing what you shouldn't do? 
Okay, I bet you'll answer me with "I'll stop doing it"... Now how if you can't stop? How if you really want to stop, but you can't? And yeah, that's my problem right now. I can't stop doing what I shouldn't do and unfortunately if I can't stop, I'll hurt somebody's heart. 

I don't want this (yeah of course, who wants to have problems?), but I can't stop... 

If I can't stop; not only hurt somebody's heart, I also become a bad-bad-bad-bad-bad-bad-bad-bad-bad-bad-bad girl. Yeah, a really bad girl. I don't want to! I really don't want to... But I am a bad girl now. Sorta.  

 

I bet you're finding out that this is a weird post. Or you're not? 

I know how to stop this. I tried. And I failed. 
Maybe the right question is 'how to force myself to die' HASDFGHJKL ERROR OCCURRED. 

I wish I'm actually sleeping now, and this is only a long nightmare. I wish this is not real.

I'm stressed out. Kontroversi hati. Kudeta cinta. And everything Japanese and Asia. 

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