Kamis, 17 Januari 2013

Waiting For You - Yesung SJ

Sepertinya yang kunanti takkan tiba.

Words I couldn’t tell you,
When I close my eyes, they will emerge again
Stop reminiscing my memories
My love, I think of you
I regret the days when I wandered with you staying by my side
Can’t you listen to my sincere heart?

I wait for you until the end of the world
I wait for you until the moment fate forbids
Now I can give you my everything
Can’t you come to me?
My dear love.

Erasing memories we had together
As if nothing happened
I say I do not know you
But my heart recognizes you at first
All the time spent with you is waiting for you
My last love, it is only you.

I wait for you until the end of the world
I wait for you until the moment fate forbids
Now I can give you my everything
Can’t you come to me?
My dear love.

This love that can’t be forgotten alone and changed
The monologue was left by your empty side
As I didn’t take your hand when you were by my side
I will never let you go again.

I missed you
I missed you, my heart grows burdened too much
Steps to you are becoming slow
But I will love you like how I met you first time
I will give love to my stopped heart.

Menanti.

Apa kamu tahu 
sedari tadi aku menanti sapaan darimu?

Belum genap 24 jam jarak menjauhkan kita, 
bahkan setengah hari pun tak sampai. 
Tapi kenapa, ya?
Rasanya aku rindu. 

Yah, sebetulnya aku sudah tahu 
kalau kebisaanmu dirindukan itu ialah salah satu bakat luar biasamu. 
Setidaknya untukku. 

Memang pernah seperti ini sebelumnya, 
tapi belum juga kutemukan sebabnya.
Aneh... Kenapa, ya?
Rasanya aku rindu.

Merindukan senyum malaikatmu, 
merindukan suaramu memanggil namaku, 
merindukan caramu mencipta tawa bahagiaku,
merindukan kamu. 
Cepatlah. Jangan buat aku jenuh.
Yang dinanti belum juga tiba.

Rabu, 16 Januari 2013

Fkata uink!

Murenut sautu pelneitian di Uinervtisas Cmabridge, utruan hruuf dlaam ktaa tiadk penitng. Ckuup huurf petrama dan trekahir ynag ada pdaa tepmatyna. Siasyna bsia dtiluis bernataakn, ktia teatp daapt mebmacayna. Ini dsieabbkan kaerna oatk ktia tdiak mebmcaa huurf per hruuf, nmaun ktaa per ktaa. Laur bisaa kan? Sdaar aatu ngagk, klaian brau sjaa membcea dgnean tiluasn ynag barentakan ;)

Selasa, 15 Januari 2013

Peanut!

Padahal kamu tahu rasanya diabaikan. 
Padahal kamu tahu sakitnya tak diacuhkan. 

Apa harus kubuat kamu merasakannya sekali lagi? 
Supaya kamu paham, agar kamu mengerti. 

Karena harusnya kamu tahu, 
bagaimana kecewanya aku tiap kali ucapanku dianggap bak angin lalu. 
Karena harusnya kamu sadar, 
bagaimana sakitnya aku tiap kali tutur kataku tak tersampaikan padamu. 


"No matter how busy a person is, if they really care, they'll always find time for you." -@RealMilaKunis_


"Emang enak, ngomong dikacangin?"-Kamu.

...Akhirnya, kamu.

Awalnya kamu, si putih yang sudah pergi jauh.

Sifatmu yang kekanak-kanakan 
dan tingkah bodohmu itu...
Mungkin (aku bilang mungkin) membuatku tertarik padamu kala itu.  
Aku saja tidak percaya aku bisa tertarik pada orang sepertimu.

Ibumu mengerikan. 
Wajahnya seolah-olah menunjukkan 
bahwa ia akan memukulku dengan rotan jika mendekatimu. 
Itu hanya persepsi pribadiku, entahlah. 

Hampir tiap orang yang mengenal kita
menganggap kita sepasang kekasih. 
Yang benar saja! 
Bahkan kita belum menginjak kelas 1 SD saat itu.

Waktu berlalu, 
aku melupakanmu.
Karena melupakanmu memang mudah saja. 
Aku dan kamu selalu dipisahkan dinding kelas, 
aku dan kamu nyaris tak pernah bertegur sapa. 

Semua telah berlalu.
Kamu hanya kenangan.
Bertahun-tahun aku tak pernah lagi menemuimu, 
tapi anak tetangga masih saja menanyakan kabarmu padaku, 
seolah-olah aku ini memang kekasihmu.   

Lalu kamu, si murah-senyum sang pemeriah suasana.

Tinggi dan pandai, 
humoris dan menyenangkan. 
Kurasa bukan hanya aku saja
yang tertarik pada pria sepertimu. 

Namun jarak antara aku dan kamu 
terpaut terlalu jauh. 
Mungkin yang kamu ketahui tentangku
hanyalah nama dan sosokku. 

Begitu, 
hanya begitu saja hubunganku denganmu. 
Hingga tiba saatnya 
kamu menemukan gadis yang membuatmu jatuh cinta. 

Hal itu tidak membuatku terguncang, 
justru membuatku tenang. 
Karena dengan begitu, 
akan lebih mudah bagiku melupakanmu. 

Semua telah berlalu.
Kamu hanya kenangan.
Tapi kamu tidak berubah.
Aku masih saja tertawa tiap kali berbicara denganmu.

Kemudian kamu, si hitam yang sok keren. 

Aku tak pernah ingin mengenalmu, 
aku benci ditakdirkan bertemu denganmu. 
Kenapa harus kamu?

Tak ada yang bisa kukagumi darimu, 
lebih-lebih kubanggakan. 
Tak pernah kulakukan apapun 
untuk membuatmu bertekuk lutut padaku. 

Tapi kenapa tiba-tiba saja 
pintu hatimu yang terbuka kala itu, 
kautetapkan sebagai milikku?

Memangnya kamu siapa, 
berani-beraninya mengetuk pintu hatiku 
dan memaksaku membukakannya?

Meskipun aku sempat goyah,
aku tidak sebodoh itu
untuk membukakan pintu hatiku untukmu. 
Kamu hanya bisa berdiri di ambang pintu,
lelah menunggu dan jenuh menanti,
dan akhirnya mencari pintu hati lain untuk kauketuk. 

Semua telah berlalu.
Kamu hanya kenangan.
Aku tak pernah lagi mengucap kata padamu,
meski kadangkala sosokmu masih saja tertangkap oleh kedua bola mataku.

Selanjutnya kamu, si ikal artis kampung sebelah.

Kamu pun sama saja! 
Kenapa harus kamu?
Ya, Tuhan. Kenapa harus dia?

Dan kenapa pula harus aku 
yang menawan hatimu saat itu?
Membuatmu tersenyum padaku,
seolah ingin membuatku 
ikut merasakan apa yang kaurasakan...

Tidak. Kukatakan tidak. 
Aku tidak mau!
Aku tidak mau jatuh di lubang yang sama... 

Tapi waktu berkata lain, 
seiring ia berjalan, 
ia memaksaku mengagumimu, 
meski hanya sesaat.

Semua telah berlalu.
Kamu hanya kenangan.
Hanya perasaanku saja
atau kamu memang masih menganggapku istimewa?

Dan kamu! Paijoku yang dulu, Tansurku yang sekarang.


Padahal yang dulu kuketahui tentangmu 
hanya nama dan sosokmu. 
Namun mengapa jatuh cinta denganmu begitu mudah?
Sulit dimengerti. 

Kukira kamu akan berakhir sama dengan mereka yang telah lalu. 
Kukira kamu akan menghadiahiku berjuta harapan, 
lalu mengenyahkan semuanya hingga lenyap tanpa bekas.  
Tapi kamu berbeda... 

Mereka tak pernah membuatku benar-benar jatuh cinta. 
Hanya kamu. 
Ya... Akhirnya, kamu. 

Kurasa belum pernah ada pria yang membuatku jatuh cinta sepandai kamu.
Kurasa belum pernah ada pria yang mencintaiku setulus kamu. 
Dan kurasa belum pernah ada pria yang bisa membuatku menangis sehebat kamu.

Still A Dreamer...


Here's a strange and weird story to tell. It's personal and gory. But I feel like if people can post their illicit photos and weekend adventures, I can share this. I believe the Lord sometimes encourages me and gives me direction through dreams and I had such a dream last night:

In the dream, I had to cross a two fields and over an hurdle to reach my prize. There were several other people making the same trip. The first field was littered with dead birds all around, underfoot. Carcasses all around. I don't think I had killed them. It looked like most had been trampled by others or run into obstacles while trying to fly. Still they were there on the ground. Dead. Several people wouldn't cross the field. The stench was too strong for them. Or either it was that you had to listen to the crunch of broken bones under your feet as you walked? Many couldn't take it.

I did. I stomached what I had to deal with. I crossed that field.

Then we came to a tall chain-link fence with an oak tree on the other side... in the way that trees and fences can begin to grow together after so many years. It was a tall fence, but not monstrous. I had to work hard to get over it and knew I'd more than likely have to jump down quite a distance on the other side. It was a nasty fence. Covered in bird poop. Mangled links. The kind that can cut and scar you if you make a wrong move. It was distasteful. It was dangerous.

I climbed it. Some people were amazed. Some people were disgusted. Some climbed over and some didn't choose to. I climbed and then I jumped to the other side.

Finally, as I hit the ground I realized there was one more hindrance facing me. The limbs of the tree were so old and so low to the ground that I could not walk past the tree. I had to get down on my belly and I had to crawl. Squirrels tried to bite at my face as I slithered along the ground. I had to inhale so much dirt and feces that it felt like I might as well be eating it. Not my best moment at all.

But I crawled. I did it. I made it.

Many didn't complete the journey. I didn't have to do anything supernatural. I just had to stomach it and keep going. I had to press beyond the carcasses of past failures - both mine and others. I had to work hard to climb and overcome that obstacle. It was tall and difficult, but not impossible. Not impossible. It only took hard work. Finally, I had to humble myself and get low... very low...and grimy.

The good news is I made it. I needed to do some things for my family and for my destiny and I made it happen. What a great feeling to know that you'll do whatever you have to do to accomplish your goals! I'm encouraged as I begin a new day! I'm excited to move forward and deal with the things I have to deal with no matter how dirty or distasteful. I know my resolve will be tested, but I will pass the test.

You will pass your test, too! This is how life is.  You press forward with all your strength and until you get "there" you don't stop!  Be encouraged!

To your success!








Mark Anthony McCray helps people live on PURPOSE, achieve higher PERFORMANCE and experience true PROSPERITY. Be sure to subscribe to this blog so you don't miss a thing and forward this to a friend if you found it helpful. All material © Copyright, Mark Anthony McCray unless otherwise noted!

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I got a chance to sit down with Don Purdum this morning to talk transparently about some of my past failures and lessons learned. If you don't know about Don, check out his Facebook page and you'll be blessed for sure!




I'd love to know what you think.  I don't want to elaborate too much now. I enjoyed getting a chance to share and I'll be doing it more in the coming weeks.  Watch the video! Let me know what other topics you'd like to hear discussed!

To your success!








Mark Anthony McCray helps people live on PURPOSE, achieve higher PERFORMANCE and experience true PROSPERITY. Be sure to subscribe to this blog so you don't miss a thing and forward this to a friend if you found it helpful. All material © Copyright, Mark Anthony McCray unless otherwise noted!

He can be reached in the following ways:

Mark@LiveBIGDieEmpty.com
Phone: 281-846-5720
Twitter: @LiveBIGDieEmpty
Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/LiveBIGDieEmpty
LinkedIn: http://www.linkedin.com/in/markanthonymccray/
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For more information on Mark as a speaker or presenter check out http://livebigdieempty.blogspot.com/p/about-mark_29.html