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Detik demi detik berlalu,

bahkan bertahun sejak hari itu.

Kamu mengetuk pintu yang telah menutup diri begitu lama,

kausentuh dengan lembut apa yang tengah bersembunyi di baliknya,

mengajarinya mencintai jemari yang menggenggamnya,

dan membuatnya nyaman akan kehangatan yang kauberikan.

Dan di sinilah aku dan kamu,

berdiri berdampingan,
tanpa berpegangan tangan. 
Atas keenggananmu menggenggam jemari kekasihmu yang entah mengapa!   

Insecurities

Here's the video from one of our longest Hangouts so far!  Don and I really got open about insecurities, criticisms and other things that hinder you from having healthy, whole and happy relationships.  Here's the VIDEO Check it out. Let me know what you think!

Post your comments below!

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Good People In Your Corner

Everybody fights better with good people in their corner.  People who are willing to wipe the sweat out of your eyes, bandage up your cuts, encourage you and send you back into the fight.  You need those people if you ever attempt to do anything at all with your life.  I'm not even talking yet about living a life of significance.  I'm talking about just doing anything at all.  Life is tough.  Don't try to go it alone.

I know people a little bit.  Most of you reading this are carrying burdens that are really troubling you.  Yet not enough of the right people know what your challenges are.  Therefore, they can't help you.  Your silence is keeping you in a worse situation than you need to be in.

I've learned this the good way and the bad way.  I have some great people in my corner now, but that hasn't always been the case because I WOULD NOT LET PEOPLE SEE THE REAL ME.  They were always good people, but shutting them out didn't allow them to know how to pray, how to help, how to encourage.

You were not designed to live in isolation.  "A brother is born for adversity" a wise man once said.  That means that you have people around you just because the Lord knew you were going to need someone one day.  We are there for each other to lean on.  Don't be so proud as to not ask for help or accept it when it's offered.  You might be cutting off someone else's blessing and destroying opportunities to develop real intimacy.

That's my only point to this blog today.  Let people know what's going on with you.  Let them help you.

Mark

Mark Anthony McCray helps people live on PURPOSE, achieve higher PERFORMANCE and experience true PROSPERITY. Be sure to subscribe to this blog so you don't miss a thing and forward this to a friend if you found it helpful. All material © Copyright, Mark Anthony McCray unless otherwise noted!

He can be reached in the following ways:

Mark@LiveBIGDieEmpty.com
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Bruno Mars' Grenade

Easy come, easy go
That's just how you live, oh
Take, take, take it all
But you never give
Should've known you was trouble
From the first kiss
Had your eyes wide open
Why were they open?

Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
'Cause what you don't understand is...

I'd catch a grenade for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I'd jump in front of a train for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
You know I'd do anything for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Oh, I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no

Black, black, black and blue
Beat me 'til I'm numb
Tell the devil I said "Hey" when you get back to where you're from
Mad woman, bad woman
That's just what you are
Yeah, you smile in my face then rip the brakes out my car

Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
'Cause what you don't understand is...

I'd catch a grenade for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on the blade for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I'd jump in front of a train for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
You know I'd do anything for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)

Oh, I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same

If my body was on fire
Oh, you would watch me burn down in flames
You said you loved me, you're a liar
'Cause you never ever ever did, baby

But, darling, I'd still catch a grenade for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on the blade for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I'd jump in front of a train for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
You know I'd do anything for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)

Oh, I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same

No, you won't do the same
You wouldn't do the same
Oh, you'd never do the same
Oh, no no no

#50FactsAboutMe!

I really want to post something, but I just don't know what to write! So I decided to write this 50 facts about myself. Other bloggers do this too, anyways!

1. I love Stitch for sure!
2. Drawing and writing are my hobbies for-ever!
3. I have a lover called bed-and-pillows :3
4. My cellphone and my glasses are things I can't live without.
5. I love ribbons and hair bows, and also studded hair accessories! 
6. I never get outta my country, but I believe that someday I'll breathe the air of Japan!
7. And France, of course! I really want to see the Eiffel Tower directly with my own eyes. 
8. Fashion blogs are my daily reads lately ;)
9. I born in Tangerang, Indonesia on September 21, 1998. 
10. Yes, people! I'll become 15 YO this year!
11. I was born on a Monday. 
12. My full name is Christy Monica. 
13. My nicknames at school are Christy and Cimon (I just dunno when exactly I called like this).  
14. I wears glasses. And I really want to have a new one now :3 
15. My mood-boosters are foods, bookstores, sleeping, and surfing the internet. 
16. I love photography! And I'm still yearning for a fine camera of my own!
17. I don't like strawberries. Uh, I mean, I hate strawberries!
18. I says no to black coffee, too.
19. And sweet tea! I'd rather choose fresh tea (which is tasteless) than any sweet tea.
20. My favorite fruits are pears, melons, and avocados (if juiced). 
21. I love breads. Croissants, donuts, uh whatever! I love breads! :9
22. I'd like to own a puppy (that will grown into a cute dog), but my mum won't let me!
23. I have a younger sister. She's very uncontrollably sometimes... Just watch out.
24. My mum's 43 YO, a year older than my dad. 
25. I love pastel colors. It seems sweet and very soft. 
26. I'm a crybaby. Touching films and heartbreaks romantic films makes me cry...
27. I really want to have a job as soon as possible to fulfill my wishlists. 
28. I hate it everytime I have to choose between hard choices and to make risky decisions. 
29. I love comic books and novels! :D
30. I read Harry Potter series. 
31. My favorite Indonesian novelist is Ilana Tan. Love her and her books very much!
32. I'm very-very-very talkative! My voice is very loud although I tried to speak quietly. 
33. I'm a pure dreamer... Who have a lot of wishlists!
34. I hate study (like everyone does). But I keep study for the sake of my scores!
35. I usually charge my cellphone battery once a day at 6 PM, routinely :p
36. I seldom go to the malls, but once I do, the first place I want to go is the bookstore!
37. I really want to make a scrapbook, but I've never did.
38. My cellphone's white, touch-screen, and it's Sony Ericsson!
39. I love chocolates! And everything that chocolate flavored.
40. I really want to be a good cook, but I'm still not good at cooking. 
41. My desk is very talented in being messy! LOL :p
42. Top wishlist: Red-white varsity jacket. 
43. I named my blog as live.laugh.love because it's simple and meaningful.
44. I wanted to have christymonica.blogspot.com as my website address, but it's already exist :(
45. I love candies! Somehow chewing candies makes me happy :p
46. I type loudly, and it annoys people around me sometimes. 
47. I love ice-creams. And its cones!
48. I seldom drink sodas, although I like it. 
49. I was tomboyish before, but I became girly lately. And I feel a bit awkward.
50. It's not easy for me to think 50 facts about me. 

Hello, March

Hello, March! Please be good to me, although I think you won't. 
I have exams-week on March 11th until 18th: two kind of lessons a day, except the last day. That's my last exams-week before the very last one... The national exam. The national exam will be held on April, 22th until 25th. Like everybody knows, national exams are Bahasa, English, Math, and Science. And did I tell you that I'm still in my mid-tests-week now? Somebody kill me please! x________x

'kay. That's okay. Be calm. All of these tortures will be end soon. Very soon. 

And I'm wishing that our (me and my friends) photo session will be held this month! Photo session, I mean, taking photos for our generation's yearbook. Although I haven't decide what kind of clothes I'm going to wear for that photo session, I feel like I can't wait for it!

But I still have things to think about! My boy will have his 14th birthday on March 19th and I haven't prepared anything for his birthday! I mean, I don't know what kind of gift I'm going to give him. He's a bit weirdo. He like novels, but I gave him a kind of that last year. Usually, girls give their boys things like wallets, watches, or even T-shirts, but I don't think he want me to give him things like that. He have a wallet already, and he don't like to wear any accessories, including watch. I really want to make his birthday this year very special and unforgettable... But how? Tell me hooowwww. Need help! I need help!

Oh, boy. March will be hard!
What I absolutely know about March, there will be many lessons to study! :|

Stepping Forward

Melangkah bersamaku, 

membuatmu mengenalku:

karena aku tidak pernah berubah

ataupun mencoba mengubah diri!

Mungkin bagimu,

aku bukanlah aku yang dahulu.

Namun dari sudut pandangku,

aku yang manapun sama saja!

Aku yang dahulu begitu ceria, 

aku yang dahulu seolah tanpa beban, 

begitukah menurutmu?

Begitukah caramu mendefinisikan 'aku yang dahulu'?

Diriku yang sekarang seringkali menangis, 

diriku yang sekarang selalu mudah marah, 

begitukah persepsimu?

Begitukah caramu mengartikan 'diriku yang sekarang'?

Bukan pribadiku yang berubah, 

mungkin saja caramu memandangku yang mulai berubah. 

Aku yang dahulu dan sekarang, 

keduanya seringkali menangis:

hanya saja, kamu yang dahulu tak mengetahuinya. 

Aku yang dahulu dan sekarang, 

keduanya mudah marah:

hanya saja, kamu yang dahulu tak pernah menyadarinya. 

Apa perlu kuulang?

Aku tidak pernah berubah

ataupun mencoba mengubah diri!

Bukankah harusnya kamu senang;

aku memperlihatkan sisi diriku yang lain?

Karena dengan begitu,

artinya aku memercayaimu.

Bukankah harusnya kamu senang;

aku membiarkanmu lebih mengetahui diriku?

Memangnya kamu mengharapkan hubungan yang monoton;

yang dipenuhi suka tanpa diselingi luka?

Mungkin yang kini kau lihat hanya duka

namun hari-hari bahagia itu akan tiba.