Minggu, 13 Oktober 2013

For each of you

For every girl who is tired of acting weak when she is strong, there is a boy tired of appearing strong when he feels vulnerable.
For every boy who is burdened with the constant expectation of knowing everything, there is a girl tired of people not trusting her intelligence.
For every girl who is tired of being called over-sensitive, there is a boy who fears to be gentle, to weep.
For every boy for whom competition is the only way to prove his masculinity, there is a girl who is called unfeminine when she competes. 
For every girl who throws out her e-z-bake oven, there is a boy who wishes to find one.
For every boy struggling not to let advertising dictate his desires, there is a girl facing the ad industry's attacks on her self-esteem.
For every girl who takes a step toward her liberation, there is a boy who finds the way to freedom a little easier.
Adapted from a poem by Nancy R. Smith.

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I'm an insane

Dear you.
Oh yes, you!
I know you'll never read this useless post in this useless blog well I mean, I know you'll never read this. So I bravely write this for you, to be honest to what I feel to you. 

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You made me laugh a lot. You're quite funny! Well, maybe you're not that good-looking; but your funny face and funny personality makes me laugh all the time (if I don't laugh in real life, I must be laughing silently inside my heart). 

Your acts are unpredictable. Very awkward sometimes, and freakin' idiotic in particular moments. You're very blushful to tell something honestly, but I do love your honesty! I do, because I know you plucks up your courage just to tell your honesty to me. 

I like you very much. I like almost every side of you. Your awkwardness especially: it makes me laugh like insane. 

The point of this post is... Nothing I guess? I just want to write something about you. Why? Dunno... Can you help me to find the answer? You're a good guesser sometimes, you know? 

You reminds me of him most of the times. You acts like him sometimes, or it's just boys' normal attitude that I dunno all this time? But oh well I still can find difference between both of you. Case closed.

What are you doing rite now...? I'm curious about it, dunno why.

Some of ppl who are reading this will think that I'm weird... Do you? I know I am really weird sometimes. But if I don't do this (posting useless things that express my random feelings), my blog would be empty right now.


AH GA TAUK AH. UDAHAN AH. GALO AH. DADAH!

Jumat, 11 Oktober 2013

A Nation of Haters?




When did we become such a nation of haters? I am disappointed in this. That's an understatement! It's sad to me that we used to be a nation of people who aspired to greater. Now we just want to get by, antagonize those who want more for themselves and then try and take what they earn. Jealousy, envy and rivalry have filled the hearts of so many that it's unusual to hear sincere congratulatory statements anymore.

Think about how rare it is to find someone who will celebrate with you. It's more common that people will celebrate when you cry.

Even compliments are too often backhanded - only offered wrapped inside a criticism towards the target or someone else... "You look nice today... unlike that ugly person over there..." or "You look a lot better today than you normally look..." or, as I heard someone say the other day, "Scandal is good.  At least it doesn't suck like... "   I am screaming inside "WHY CAN'T YOU JUST SAY YOU LIKE SCANDAL AND LEAVE IT AT THAT!?!?"

To me the cause is clear. Too much time spent minding other peoples' business and not enough on your own... because you have no business of your own to excite you! You see, it's easy to criticize when you take no chances of your own. And you hurl accusations at others because it hurts your heart to be honest - those criticisms are for you! You're angry with and disappointed in yourself!

Here are the guidelines for my life and my personal circle: I don't spend time with people who can't appreciate others, who can't compliment, who can't care. I won't entertain your comments. You don't have access to my emotions. There are enough of your kind around. I'm sure you can find some company. In the mean time, the rest of us will be making progress towards our visions. I aim on giving people more to envy.

I've noticed how difficult it is for some of us to give sincere compliments consistently. Complaints seem to roll off the tongue a lot easier. "Feedback" will be offered whether requested or not. I'm issuing myself a Live Big Die Empty Challenge today: No complaints, no deprecation; only praise and appreciation. Everyone I encounter today will receive "exuberant edification" instead of constructive criticism. How about you?

It takes nine compliments to undo the damage of one criticism.  How much damage have you been doing to yourself?  To others?  It's time to start healing and building up!









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Curl!

Last Wednesday, I went to Nabiilah's home and yes, she curled my hair! Unexpectedly, my hair become very short and I felt like I wasn't me! Well, you know, Christy that everybody know is Christy with extremely straight hair. I mean, many people says that I got a very nice hair, but I don't get which part of my hair makes it called as 'very nice hair'. But Christy is a curly girl last Wednesday! It's fun to be different sometimes!

I was very excited about my curly hair so I took soooo many photos of myself being curly girl lol. I felt like kinda alay but OH OKAY THIS IS ME BEING MYSELF! \m/


What do you think, what do you think? I know, I know this post is another-post-of-my-narcissistic. Forgive me. Do you know dat rabbit in the second panel? It's a rabbit from Line Pokopang game. His name's Bony if I don't wrongly remember his name. He's very cute right? I mean, just look at his funny face!

Another narcissistic attack. Excuse the first panel... My face looks terribly idiotic there.

Aaaaand actually, this curly hair survived till the next day! Well, it's not as curly as in the photo anymore in the next day of course. It looks like dis yesterday. 

I think that's all for today! Now just imagine how naughty I am: curl my hair meanwhile I'm still in my mid-test-week. 

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Selasa, 08 Oktober 2013

7 Ways to Form A "Pack" So You Can Hunt Bigger Game


We've talked before about what each of us can learn from the lion, the king of the jungle. I've got a particular fondness to lions because of a couple of things the scriptures teach us about the nature of these big cats and how we're to emulate them.  We also know that too many of us spend too much time and too much effort for too little result because we try to fight alone. .Here are some things you can do to start forming your own pack and going after bigger game.

#1 - Make a list of all the people who care about the issue. Really care about it.

#2 - Identify two of them to talk to. Set up a breakfast or lunch meeting. Lay out my aspirations to see if they are interested. My goal is to get another meeting with them.

#3 - Brainstorm with the first supporter about a list of (mostly unempowered) targets who might like to get involved. Put together a tight schedule for contacting 5-10 people from that list.

#4 - Start a master file listing all the people that I want involved in the project.

#5 - Never let a chance to brief a co-conspirator or potential co-conspirator pass.  In other words, never pass up a chance to tell your story!

#6 - Find an enthusiast to use the product/service.

#7 - Put this first enthusiast in charge of finding others.

It's as simple as that.  We have to stop trying to do so much alone.  And, for my friends reading this... Yes. I am looking in the mirror right now!









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Jumat, 04 Oktober 2013

Complicated


Well, hello. I'm here today to kill myself ask something. 

What will you do 
if you're doing what you shouldn't do? 
Okay, I bet you'll answer me with "I'll stop doing it"... Now how if you can't stop? How if you really want to stop, but you can't? And yeah, that's my problem right now. I can't stop doing what I shouldn't do and unfortunately if I can't stop, I'll hurt somebody's heart. 

I don't want this (yeah of course, who wants to have problems?), but I can't stop... 

If I can't stop; not only hurt somebody's heart, I also become a bad-bad-bad-bad-bad-bad-bad-bad-bad-bad-bad girl. Yeah, a really bad girl. I don't want to! I really don't want to... But I am a bad girl now. Sorta.  

 

I bet you're finding out that this is a weird post. Or you're not? 

I know how to stop this. I tried. And I failed. 
Maybe the right question is 'how to force myself to die' HASDFGHJKL ERROR OCCURRED. 

I wish I'm actually sleeping now, and this is only a long nightmare. I wish this is not real.

I'm stressed out. Kontroversi hati. Kudeta cinta. And everything Japanese and Asia. 

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Rabu, 02 Oktober 2013

Kagamine Rin: I Like You, I Love You


ne ne ne nee, ne, chotto ii
isogashii nara, gomen
sukoshi dake, ne sukoshi de ii
oshaberi ni tsukiatte

dou shiyou ka nani shiyou ka
etto geemu demo suru
shiritori shi yo
shiri to ´ri´ ´ ri´ n.
gomen ne, tsuduka nai ne

onaka suka nai nani ka tabe tai
e eto, atashi mizu de ii ya
kimi monita kara me o hanashi ta
suki ni hisshi ni shimyureeto
sorenanoni baka mitsume rare tara
nodo ga kawai te koe de nai
puha dou shiyou
ano ne, jitsuha ru
dame da, yappari kowai no

kimochi tsutae ta iyo anata ni
kono kimochi doushite kurushii no

ne ne ne nee, ne, chotto ii
isogashii nara, gomen
sukoshi dake, ne sukoshi de ii
oshaberi ni tsukiatte

dou shiyo uka nani shiyo uka
etto sore ja janken shiyo
jankenpon aiko desho
gomen ne, tsumaranai ne

onaka suka nai nani ka tabe tai
e eto, atashi mizu de ii ya
ano ne, tokorode, toutotsu da kedo
okashii tte omottara gomen
bikkuri suru kamo shire nai no
demo ne, kii te hoshii, e eto
puha dou shiyou
ano ne, jitsuhare
dame da, yappari kowai no

kimochi tsutae ta iyo anata ni
kono kimochi doushi te kurushii no

ano ne, jitsuha,
a ta atashi, ata, atashi, ano, ano
ano ne, anata ga, aa,
atashi, gomen, matte a ta atashi
a ta, atashi, ano, ano ne,
anata ga, su

ano ne, jitsuha no sono, atashi, ata
atashi, ano, ano, ano ne,
anata ga, aa
atashi, gomen, matte, ano ano ne
e eto, atashi
anata no koto ga
ano ne atashi anata no koto
ano ne atashi anata no koto
atashi wa anata ga

su, su, su,su, su, su, su su
su, su, su, su, su, su, su, su,
suu, waa gomen, wasure te
matte!
su, su, su, su, su, su su, su
su, su, su, su, su su su su
su, su, su, su, su, su, su su

~suki, daisuki!

Selasa, 01 Oktober 2013

Hello, October


Goodbye September... and oh hello, October! 
  • 15 months w/ my bf on October 6.  
Yeeeeehaaaa! Will reach 15 months relationship with him in 5 days from now on. I wish I could be a better gf for him; stop complaining etc. and be a good girl. Also, I wish he would be better too; be more romantic (you wont believe how un-romantic he is) and act nicer to me :p 
  • I'll have my mid-test this month starting with October 7.
You've gotta kidding me, this is my first time having test week in VHS, and I just know that I should do three tests in a day: I went mad just with two tests a day (when I was in JHS) and now three? *bang my head to the wall repeatedly* but yeah, the show must go on. Wish me luck for my first test week ever in VHS... :')
  • My choir group will perform on October 20.
Kewl, rite? Lol just kidding... But I don't even remember when the last time I performed somewhere in a choir group. And yes, the choir group I mean is my friends in vocal extracurricular. We'll perform in a mall in Tangerang, the songs are Heal The World, Indonesia Jaya, and my school's jingle. Need to practice a lot. Practices makes perfect (/'3')/

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October
please be nice! 
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Becoming Your Best Self



This has been EVERYTHING to me. If you're on my personal page, you saw me talk about this the other day. Even so, take this a reminder. Now you've heard it twice and you're accountable.  This is something I had to learn and practice for myself and I can tell you honestly.... this way lies happiness and fulfillment! 

You have an image of your best self in mind. Everyone does. Whether you see yourself as a speaker, an author, a teacher, a student, a wife and mother, a happy husband greeting his family at the door, everyone has a picture in their mind of their best self.

My encouragement to you today is that it is important that you take steps towards that picture every day. I can't stress enough how important that is. For some of you, it is a matter of life and death. Too long operating outside of your ideal image damages EVERYthing in your life. It can lead to health problems, challenges in your spiritual walk, relationship problems and parenting issues. Believe me. I know! It can even lead to depressive states.

Some call it "cognitive dissonance" when you have something YOU KNOW YOU SHOULD BE DOING but you continue to allow yourself not to do it. For example, you KNOW you should launch that business, but you hesitate. You KNOW you should ask that woman out on a date, but you don't. The longer you continue to deny your best self, the more you begin to lose that self.  You begin to slip backwards.  You become frustrated and often don't know why.

Keep taking steps towards who you know you're meant to be. A wonderful added benefit is how great you will begin to feel about yourself and your life once you know you're fighting for progress even in small ways! Go forward! #BabyStepsCountToo #KeepMoving








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