Minggu, 24 Februari 2013

Seandainya Saja



Haruskah kulambaikan tangan, 
menyampaikan sapaan ringan?
Haruskah kuberi kamu senyum tipis, 
menghadiahkan simpati manis?

Atau haruskah aku terdiam beku, 
agar tak kusapa kamu dengan kaku? 
Atau haruskah kuberi kamu tatapan sinis, 
tanpa perlu bermanis-manis?

Ada debaran aneh yang menggangguku 
tiap kali kamu tertangkap sorot mataku. 
Aku bingung harus berbuat apa, 
meski hanya sekedar menyapa. 

Aku tidak menyukaimu, 
juga tidak membencimu. 
Ada gejolak aneh padaku 
yang kurasakan terhadapmu.

Ah... 
Seandainya saja kamu tak pernah ada, 
mungkin segalanya akan lebih mudah. 
Seandainya saja kamu tak pernah ada, 
mungkin segalanya akan lebih terarah. 

Seandainya saja kamu tak pernah ada
mungkin hela nafasku akan lebih lega.

Seandainya saja kamu tak pernah ada...
Aku takkan pernah seterluka ini, 
aku takkan pernah sesengsara ini. 

Namun nyatanya kamu di sana, 
tertawa dengan pipi merona
tanpa tahu sakit yang kuderita.

Future



“Masa depan yang bahagia 
tergantung pada kita berdua.” 
-Buku Agama guweh!

Sabtu, 23 Februari 2013

Aku Ingin Tetap Bersamamu

Kamu menyukainya.
Terlihat dari bagaimana kamu memandangnya, 
tersirat dari caramu berbicara dengannya. 

Tiap kali ia melangkah mendekatimu, 
tatapmu penuh binar cemerlang, 
seakan-akan ialah satu-satunya insan
yang dapat memberimu bahagia. 

Oh, yang benar saja!
Apa yang ia miliki tidak kumiliki
untuk memberimu bahagia 
dan tawa gembira?

Tiap kali ia datang menghampirimu, 
kamu tersenyum lalu memanggil namanya. 
Kamu senang akan kehadirannya:
bahasa tubuhmu jelas menyiratkannya. 

Aku tidak menyukainya!
Bagaimana mungkin aku menyukai dia 
yang seringkali merusak hariku 
dengan menepis tiap-tiap kebahagiaan kecilku?

Dan kamupun sudah tahu betul 
aku sama sekali tidak menyukainya. 
Aku sama sekali membencinya. 
Tapi kamu masih saja bersamanya. 

Bukan berarti aku memintamu meninggalkannya, 
bagaimana mungkin aku melakukannya? 
Ia terlalu istimewa buatmu, 
yang aku tak paham mengapa. 

Mungkin saja
ialah tempatmu melarikan diri. 

Mungkin kamu sudah muak 
dengan tingkah konyolku, 
sehingga kamu lebih memilih 
untuk menghabiskan waktumu bersamanya.  

Kuharap pikirku meleset, 
kuharap bayanganku itu salah. 

Karena aku masih ingin menetap di sisimu, 
menjadi satu-satunya sebab senyum dan tawamu. 
Karena aku masih ingin berada di hatimu, 
menjadi satu-satunya sosok yang berkeliaran dalam benakmu. 

Orang yang tepat untukmu 
tentu saja bukan dia, melainkan aku. 

Dia hanyalah penggembira sesaat, 
aku tahu cara ia membuat tipu daya. 
Dia hanyalah pemberi suka kemudian luka, 
aku tak mau kamu menjadi korbannya. 

Tinggalkan dia
aku masih berdiri di sini untukmu. 

  
Terlambatkah aku 
untuk mengucap maaf?

Kuharap kamu mau mengerti:
Aku ingin tetap bersamamu.

Bruno Mars' Just The Way You Are

Oh her eyes her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day


Yeah I know I know
When I compliment her
She won't believe me
And it's so, it's so
Sad to think that she don't see what I see


But every time she asks me "Do I look okay?"
I'll say


When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile
The whole world stops and stares for a while
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are


Yeah her lips her lips
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh her laugh
She hates but I think it's so sexy
She's so beautiful
And I tell her everyday


Oh you know you know you know
I never ask you to change
If perfect's what you're searching for
Then just stay the same

So, don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I'll say


When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile
The whole world stops and stares for a while
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are


The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you are


When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile
The whole world stops and stares for a while
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are


Yea-eah.

Imparfaite est parfait!


Mungkin bagimu,

wanita hanyalah sosok pemimpi

yang mendambakan kesempurnaan seorang kekasih.

Namun percayalah, wanita itu bukan aku.

                                                                                                            

Tidak pernah,

meski sebersit,

walau satu kali saja,

kuharapkan kamu sebagai seorang pria sempurna!



Andaikata kamu pria sempurna,

kamu akan tahu segala.

Sehingga kamu takkan lagi membutuhkanku,

sehingga aku hanya akan menyusahkan buatmu.



Andaikata kamu pria sempurna,

kamu akan punya segala.

Sehingga kamu tak butuh apapun dariku,

sehingga aku hanya bisa menerima darimu.



Mengerikan, bukan?

Membayangkan kamu yang takkan lagi membutuhkanku,

mereka-reka tentang kamu yang takkan lagi menginginkanku.

Idih.
Bukan diri sempurna yang kuharapkan darimu,

melainkan cinta sempurnalah yang kudambakan darimu:

Cinta yang akan selalu menopangku ketika aku jatuh,

cinta yang setia berada di sisiku tanpa pernah mengabaikanku.



“You don’t need to be perfect,

you just need to be the way you are.”

Minggu, 17 Februari 2013

Rihanna's Diamond

Shine bright like a diamond
Shine bright like a diamond

Find light in the beautiful sea
I choose to be happy
You and I, you and I
We’re like diamonds in the sky

You’re a shooting star I see
A vision of ecstasy
When you hold me, I’m alive
We’re like diamonds in the sky

I knew that we’d become one right away
Oh, right away
At first sight I left the energy of sun rays
I saw the life inside your eyes

So shine bright, tonight you and I
We’re beautiful like diamonds in the sky
Eye to eye, so alive
We’re beautiful like diamonds in the sky

Shine bright like a diamond
Shine bright like a diamond
Shining bright like a diamond
We’re beautiful like diamonds in the sky

Shine bright like a diamond
Shine bright like a diamond
Shining bright like a diamond
We’re beautiful like diamonds in the sky

Palms rise to the universe
As we moonshine and molly
Feel the warmth, we’ll never die
We’re like diamonds in the sky

You’re a shooting star I see
A vision of ecstasy
When you hold me, I’m alive
We’re like diamonds in the sky

At first sight I felt the energy of sun rays
I saw the life inside your eyes

So shine bright, tonight you and I
We’re beautiful like diamonds in the sky
Eye to eye, so alive
We’re beautiful like diamonds in the sky

Shine bright like a diamond
Shine bright like a diamond
Shining bright like a diamond
We’re beautiful like diamonds in the sky

Shine bright like a diamond
Shine bright like a diamond
Shining bright like a diamond
We’re beautiful like diamonds in the sky

Shine bright like a diamond
Shine bright like a diamond
Shine bright like a diamond

So shine bright, tonight you and I
We’re beautiful like diamonds in the sky
Eye to eye, so alive
We’re beautiful like diamonds in the sky

Shine bright like a diamond
Shine bright like a diamond
Shine bright like a diamond
Shine bright like a diamond
Shine bright like a diamond
Shine bright like a diamond
Shine bright like a diamond

Mommy says...

Stufo!

Kamu keterlaluan! 
Kamu bilang 'sampai jumpa' padanya? 
Yang benar saja! 
Kamu bahkan tak pernah bilang 'sampai jumpa' padaku!

Itu menyakitkan, kau tahu? 
Aku sampai kesal dibuatnya. 

Kamu bilang 'lain kali'
Lho, jadi akan ada kali lainnya?
Kali lain yang kaubuat sendiri, 
kali lain yang kauciptakan atas kemauanmu, begitu? 

Kenapa harus ada 'lain kali'
Apa yang dia berikan padamu 
sampai-sampai dia begitu pantas menerimanya?
Kauanggap apa aku ini?

Duh! 
Apa sih yang kamu pikirkan? 
Oh, apakah pertanyaanku salah? 
Mungkin... Yang lebih tepat, 
siapa sih yang kamu pikirkan?

Semua yang kauperuntukkan padanya 
selalu dibuat seolah-olah begitu istimewa.
Lalu untukku? Hanya kaubuat sekenanya. 
Dibuat seenak jidatmu saja. 

Sejujurnya, 
aku tak mau ada kali lainnya 
antara kamu dan dia.

Yah, tapi ini hanya keegoisanku semata
Tak perlu kaudengarkan
Aku sudah terbiasa tak kaudengarkan

Tre giorni fa.

Mungkin kamu tidak tahu, 
aku menangis malam itu.

Kupikir aku bisa membuatnya sempurna, 
meski hanya kali ini saja! 

Namun kamu merusaknya, 
merusak segalanya. 
Kauhancurleburkan tiap angan dan harapan
yang susah payah kupertahankan.

Kamu kekasihku, 
hanya satu-satunya milikku.
Tidakkah seharusnya kamu membantuku, 
dan bukannya menjatuhkanku?

Ah
Malam itu tak seperti malam-malam lainnya
dimana kubiarkan ia terjatuh begitu saja.
Tentu saja ia yang kumaksud ialah air mata!

Malam itu
Aku berusaha begitu keras
kujungkir-balikkan tubuhku, 
kutengadahkan kepalaku,
supaya ia tak jatuh, 
supaya tak lagi pipiku basah karenanya. 
Namun tak satupun berhasil!

Mungkin kamu tidak tahu, 
aku menangis malam itu.
 
Tidak mengerti? Kurang paham? Tidak apa. Ini bukan sesuatu yang harus kamu mengerti dan pahami.

Inginku

Inginku
Saat itu kaukejar sosokku,
kauraih pergelangan tangan kiriku 
dan kaugenggam erat seolah takut kehilanganku. 

Bukannya kaubiarkan aku pergi
melangkah seorang diri
tanpa arah yang pasti!

Inginku 
Saat itu kau tetap di sisiku, 
kauusap air mataku, 
dan kauupayakan segala cara untuk menghentikan tangisku. 

Bukannya kautinggalkan aku sendiri 
berdiri seorang diri 
tanpa seorangpun menemani. 


Ditulis 15 Februari 2013, 
beberapa menit sebelum bel tanda tryout Bahasa Inggris usai berbunyi.

Kamis, 14 Februari 2013

Pembuka

Namun bagiku, 
kamu tidak perlu menjadi pangeran 
untuk menjadikanku putri. 

Atau lebih tepatnya, 
kamu tidak perlu berusaha menjadi pangeran 
untuk menjadikanku putri, 
karena sesungguhnya kamu selalu menjadi pangeran untukku, 
seperti apapun kamu. 

Senin, 11 Februari 2013

Can I Go 40 Days Without TV?

Lent is coming up. If you observe it, what are you sacrificing this year? I was thinking about giving up coffee, but television is starting to come to the front of my mind.

Just in case you want to join in with me, I've set up an Event Page on Facebook for us!

What is Lent and when is it?

Lent is a season of the Christian Year where Christians focus on simple living, prayer, and fasting in order to grow closer to God. It's the forty days before Easter. Lent excludes Sundays because every Sunday is like a little Easter. Basically, it's about one-tenth of a year (like a tithe of time). Mardi Gras is the day before Lent, which begins with Ash Wednesday. This year it's from February 13 until March 30, 2013.


My gut is that I will get some comments along the lines of my no fast-food challenge - lots of people telling me they NEVER eat the stuff. Yet these fast food industry is doubling in size something like daily? With television, I will get 100 people telling me how they haven't seen a television in decades. In fact, what is a television?

My faith family observes Lent.  The whole idea is to join in sacrificing as did Christ.  Also, you use the time to draw closer to God.  You focus on prayer and time in the scriptures and on service all while denying your flesh.  You use the time to focus on your true purpose and priorities... something I really need in this season.

So I am thinking television is going to be out of my life for a little while.  Somebody let me know what I miss.

What are you sacrificing?  









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Minggu, 10 Februari 2013

7 More Things I Learned from Hip Hop...


I've already confessed to being a Hip Hop Head. Don't hold it too much against me. I find inspiration from unusual places sometimes. I have loved rap music since my dad brought Kurtis Blow's single "The Breaks" home for us to listen to.  There are some lessons that I've learned from it over the years that have helped me in life. Here are some more of my favorites.  For those already standing in judgment, I can assure you that I have my ears and soul in high filter most all the time.  Don't worry about me too much and, if you do, just pray...

1. "On the the next one!" ~Jay Z

Whether you've experienced success or a moment of failure, living forward is the best approach to a successful life.  When Paul speaks of pressing forward, he is not talking about leaving his mistakes behind.  He is talking about leaving his successes behind and striving for God's best for him.  Unintentionally, Jay Z was preaching.

2. "If you ain't got money, you better have hustle. Then when you get yo money, you can add some muscle." ~ 2 Chainz

Use what you have.  Lack of money is NEVER an acceptable excuse when it comes to pursuing your purpose.  If you can't go after it no matter the difficulties, perhaps you don't deserve it anyway.    As Dr. Benjamin Carson said recently: "Don't accept excuses and don't offer any either. When you stop allowing excuses, people start looking for solutions."  Use what you have at your disposal.  When you get more, then use that, too.

3. “You know what it is. Everything I do, I do it big!” ~Wiz Khalifa

Wiz Khalifa... unfortunately appearing to be in a marijuana-induced haze 99% of the time... makes a great point.  "Go BIG or go home!" is what they used to say.  Indeed.  There is something to be said for the way a certain amount of boastful confidence can move you forward in life.

4. "Now everybody loves Kanye. I'm almost Raymond." ~Kanye West

You can't be swayed by the crowds.  They are fickle.  Even Jesus knew this.  You have to be purpose-driven from beginning to end.  One day people will hate you and the next they will love you and "they" will sometimes swing back and forth between the two.  Stay focused and true to your calling regardless.


5. "You believe in God. But can you handle it when it's hard?" ~Juvenile

Whoever thought Juve would become a preacher?!  This is a true word.  Do you have faith that God's Word is true or not?  It all comes down to that.

6. "I get my energy from my Inner G." ~Lupe Fiasco

I like Lupe.  Lupe is authentic and seems to be transparent at all turns.  True enthusiasm comes from the inside as spring welling up from your spirit as my pastor likes to talk about.  It is a renewable resource and not dependent upon good circumstances.  In fact, real energy must be independent of circumstances because you have to go back to it for strength when everything around you says you should give up.  I believe you can only get that kind of energy from God.


7. “You gotta have style and learn to be original.” ~Boogie Down Productions

NOBODY pays attention to a copy.  The world only hears unique voices.  Echoes are neat side shows, but contain no new information so people don't pay much for them.  It's funny.  I was watching "Something from Nothing: The Art of Rap" and a recurring theme was how the first thing most acts had to do to succeed is find their own voice.  MC Lyte, Salt, B-Real and others talked about spending hours just walking around their living rooms working on perfecting their voice.  B-Real was told at one point "We like you, but you're fired if you can't sound like YOU instead of like somebody else!"  He got the message.

What are you learning from what you're listening to?  Wisdom is all around but all true wisdom comes from God's Word.  I just like the way others package it at times.









Mark Anthony McCray helps people live on PURPOSE, achieve higher PERFORMANCE and experience true PROSPERITY. Be sure to subscribe to this blog so you don't miss a thing and forward this to a friend if you found it helpful. All material © Copyright, Mark Anthony McCray unless otherwise noted!

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